A Slice of Life

I have been having an issue sleeping this past week. Technically I haven't been sleeping well for a long time, mostly from having to get up to go to the bathroom every hour or so but this past week its more that I can't sleep at all. It's 2:30am right now which isn't bad, last night I went to sleep finally around 4am. I imagine that it is mostly nerves and partially that being on bedrest I do not expend much energy throughout the day so don't get as tired? I thought I would sleep really well last night as I actually was out for about 7 hours yesterday, a few hours at work, a few errands, some last minute baby shopping mixed in with a lovely mental health visit to my favorite scrapbook store. I was more than exhausted and feeling terrible by the time I got home but I still couldn't sleep last night... so yeah it must be nerves :)

I am so excited to meet our little girl, but have all the new mom doubts too... I worry some about the actual birth, how will it go? Will we both be healthy? How long will it take, when will it actually happen?? And I worry some about afterwards. It is scary bringing a little human into our world... life changing. I worry about how we will cope together as parents, how will she affect our relationship? What kind of mother will I be? I worry about my health, being healthy enough so that I can play with her and have a long life with her. So many more worries... I think really the only thing I don't worry about is what kind of father Brendan will be, I know he will be awesome. Loving, fun, patient. I knew it as soon as we started dating. He and I talked a long while tonight, turns out we had both been worrying separately about many of the same things... and I had been feeling very lonely. I feel better now, maybe not completely but much much better. He is still the same Brendan, just more stressed out than usual apparently.

So onwards with this journey we go... really it is exciting... we should have our very own little precious baby girl here with us no later than say a week? Gosh maybe tomorrow, who really knows other than her and God. She will make her way out when she is ready... or when we decide to induce her on Tuesday, either way, shouldn't be long now.

Here are a few random photos from the last week or so.

Stacks of baby stuff, all washed and ready to go.




Brendan playing "hockey" with Kalli, and her happiness afterwards.












Paul and Brendan spent last Tuesday together, finishing up some work on the Passat, then enjoying a few hours at the 2010 Car Show and finally the evening at a Canucks game. Brendan bought Emma her first official Canucks gear - his first purchase for the baby that he made my himself :)